"you could do better"
i recently mentioned to my friend that i wanted to look for a new job. "good", she said. "you can do better." i know it sounds like a generic phrase of encouragement, but for some reason it stuck with me. you can do better. you could do more with the time you have on this earth. you're misaligned. you've been pushing with all your might at a boulder that has hardly budged. your heart isn't in it anymore.
her words feel truer than any advice i've gotten so far because i so desperately want them to be true.
i want to be divinely selected. i want to reach impossible heights.
but i'm only human. i need my routine, 8 hours of sleep, dinner on the couch watching tv. i need my boyfriend and my family and friends. i'm scared of reaching higher because i might sacrifice the life that fuels my ambition.
i guess life is just a big balancing act.